Wednesday, July 20, 2011

counting the days

just today it slipped my mind
we're all laughing and talking, keep on drinking and eating
talking about the past, talking about today, talking about the future we should have someday
talking about our dreams, about our expectations
with no worries, with no hesitation
we seems fighting the time, refusing to age
but then time do flies
yesterday, we might be a little kid
and then without even realize it, we've graduated from college and started to live as an adult
and now, as life cycle, we started to make family ourselves

we met new guy, we date, we broke off
we started a new relationship again and then we decided that we've found the meaning of life
we've been engaged and then getting married
without even realize it my friend, we, who refused to age, started to grow up
we grew up by nature, by the force of nature
we are becoming an adult
and it hit me today

couple months from now, i'll be someone's wife
and then i have to be responsible not just for my life, but also for someone's else
we grow up my friend
we grow up and there's nothing we can do about it
just live your life!

Monday, July 4, 2011

last part for ever after

yak..akhirnya konseling kita SELESAI!! yipeee... not that i hate it, just you know, i'd prefer spending it having fun after all the hard day at work all week long. so, for the last counseling, since i'm half dozed due to exhaustion and a little bit feverish, i'm not quite remember about what we talked about. all i know is that we should communicate everything with our spouse and always ask for God's guidance. and then there's a turning back part. our first lesson was learning how to give since our purpose of being married is to give happiness to our spouse. but the last lesson, we could take and give. the reason why they told us at the end is because taking is easy, but giving is hard to do, so they have to remind us to giving for almost the whole session and just one session to tell us that there should be a balance of take and give.

and at the end of our counseling, we had to take a personality test. just like the old one. whether we are sanguinist, choleric, melancolic or phlegmatic. another test to check my personality though. back in my senior high days, i was sanguin-melancholic, but thanks to Hantoro, i was changed to sanguin choleric. but on my last test, my phlegmatic is rising!! pretty confusing, since my phlegmatic was always at the bottom of four. so i guess i'm not stable enough. hahahaa... david on the other hand, is pretty amazing. he had a stable personality all his life. no significant differences among those four. all almost equal. emotionless person. hahaha...

whatever it is, i hope it's enough to help us in walking marriage life. huff. many people reminded me of how close i am in becoming a wife. please.. don't remind me again. i don't know how to react. i don't think there will be such difference though. but maybe i was wrong. yeah, i might move into other house, but we still live in same city. we could meet everyday. or i could sleep over someday. right now, i don't know what to feel. excited perhaps, and sometimes scared. but all i know is that it's not only me.. with 3 more months to go, we still have a lot to prepare. oh gosh.. hopefully everything will be just fine.